Why?

Parents out there will no doubt remember the time when their kid went through the 'why?' stage. Every statement is meant with the question, which,  when answered, is simply met with another question. It goes something like this;
What are you doing dad?
Just getting things ready for work.
Why?
So I have everything I need when I get there.
Why do you have to have everything?
Because I want to  do my job well.
Why?
Um, so, um, because I want the kids I work with and the people I work with to be happy.
Why?
PAUSE
Why?
I'm not sure. Maybe because that makes me happy.
PAUSE
Why?

It's been a while since Jack went through that stage. It left me with two thoughts; the first being one of frustration, and the second, making me realise how good it is to question.

Why?

Why do you do that job you always complain about?
Because I can't work out what else to do.
Why?
Because I search for the traditional route of one job that is secure but that always seems to leave me compromising.
Why do you do that?
Because I'm not sure there is an alternative.
Really?
Well, no. I know there is an alternative. But it's a pretty risky one.
Why?
Well, because there will not be a set pay packet coming in each month, and I'm not really sure how I would go about it all.
Why not?
Because it will mean I have to be driving it all. And it wouldn't be just one thing, it would be a number of things, and it may take a bit of money, and I can't afford not to make money for like six months, and I seem to jump from one thing to the other and it all seems too much to think about really.
What does?
What does what?
What seems too much to think about?
Searching for the things I could do to make a real difference. Things I could do that I will truly LOVE.
PAUSE
So... What exactly is your problem?
PAUSE
Truthfully?
Truthfully.
Um...I think that if I make the decision. If I turn away from the safe, then what I'm really doing is leaving it completely up to me, and then, well,  I have to back myself. And I'm afraid of doing that, because I'm not sure I'm really up to it all.
PAUSE

Why not?